Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Hello

Thgemini girl welcomes those who wish to visit and read her musings. Some writings will be happy, some will be not, but she will always be honest.

The "slave" journey has been ongoing for this girl for the last 9 months ... it has been interesting and her exploring very worth it ... but this journey had almost ended for her as she struggled with the heaviness of her collar which Sir removed when she asked.

girl thought that everything would remain in place and stay the same regardless of whether or not she actually wore a literal collar or not ... she was very wrong. It had hurt MasterSir that she had in effect asked to be "released" from His collar (but girl was foolish and did not realize this) and she continued to "go through the motions" as did Sir.

It took two months before girl realized things were not right, she was confused by Sir's withdrawal and becoming more frustrated by her needs ... slave was awakening to the fact that she did indeed NEED her MasterSir's collar ... she needed His control and dominance ... she desired them to her very core.

Divine intervention placed a dear friend in her circle who was able to help girl see the truth ... to understand just what she had done ... it did not matter that she had not meant offense or to hurt MasterSir ... the fact was that she had done so ... she needed help to know what to do to fix these things.

That night girl stripped herself bare ... not only her clothing ... but her heart and mind and soul too. she humbly offered the chain collar and lock into MasterSir's hands ... bowed before Him with her head on the floor between His feet ... weight resting on forearms and knees with her ass high in the air and tears flowing as she choked out words she had been rehearsing.

Four days later, after much talk and many details set in place ... this girl and her loving MasterSir put pen to paper and set in motion a strict training contract that will endur for a 2 month period ... roughly how long it took for her to realize and rectify her carelessness.

girl will attempt to journal here on a regular basis ... she is also keeping a small notebook with her in order to be able to write her thoughts and feelings so that MasterSir will have further access to her ... there are to never be any barriers to communication ... and she keeps several other blogs as is true to her Gemini nature :)

she will continue to use strict 3rd person, which she has found to be very difficult when speaking ... it sounds so easy but is so hard to do ... and MasterSir helps slave keep count of her slips and lovingly gives her opportunity each day to count them off as they are paid in flesh and she may be given a clean slate to start the new day.

Time has become short and girl has assigned chores that she must attend to ... looking forward to sharing this adventure. Any contact is humbly requested to be respectful of MasterSir.

Love and Light,
:) gemini girl (: